I'm antsy.
Not sure when it started but here I am, mindlessly swinging my feet back & forth at my cubicle desk, toes & fingernails tapping to a silent beat. Daydreaming is a common pastime now & the large windows behind me beckon.
It's not a bad case of boredom & It's not that I don't like where I am now. May God forgive me if I take what I have for granted. Life is good & I am blessed but I want something more. I am anticipating, restless. It's like I need to be recruited to do a secret mission to save the world or something. Truly, we humans never can be fully satisfied. Am I right?
I can point out two particular things that have just fanned the flames under my seat lately:
Yes, indeedy. Mrs. Ruth Gruber is everything I wish to be. She was at the right places at the right time with the best people. At age 24, she became the youngest to receive a PhD. She was a journalist, humanitarian, writer & photographer. She worked with the US Government, wrote for the Chicago Tribune & the New York Times. She traveled the world, covering events like the Nuremburg trials in 1946 & the aftermath of the Holocaust. She was in Israel during its Independence & met with Ben Gurion many times. Ugh, her accomplishments go on & on. She is goals. It's pretty disappointing & unfair to compare my life with hers but I do it anyway with the expected results. There's just no way of one-upping her life.
I don't remember how I heard about her, but I bought the book used & now I will never part with it...but I probably won't read it again. We have the perfect love-hate relationship.
Hamilton, on the other hand, just gets me going, I heard about it at work but it wasn't until my sister played the first song did I get hooked. It's so catchy, witty & downright genius. Lin Manuel-Miranda is just that. It's exactly what I like: historical, sarcastic, adventurous, tasteful cussing & set to good music. History Has It's Eyes on You always gives me goosebumps. Every time. Lafayette's voice is gorgeous, Burr's is too. I read that the Roots helped Manuel-Miranda with the music. Genius move.
So there you have it. I am an antsy fidget stumbling upon mounds of sugary gems. It doesn't help, but boy is it good! Does that even make sense?
-K. Bye